Troubled

You say run, I say how fast.

You say shout, I say how loud.

You say dive, I say how deep.

You say fly, I say how high.

You can do this,

You can do that.

Left and right I hear that.

You push too hard that makes an encouragement a command.

i dont want any of this 

and i dont want to tell them.

They are counting on me

and i dont want to disappoint them.

If only they knew how lost I am,

If only they knew how hurt I am.

I want to please them 

but Im not sure if I want it this way.

I need to know who I am

and who I want to be.

I need to know what I want

and what i want things to be.

From the beginning you hold my kite,

From the body to the strings you make sure its right.

But i want to fly my own kite,

I still dont know how, but in time i will find out.