Its june 2, and im already scared of going to school. June 27 is the big day. I think I'm on a cliff right now that anytime i will fall. I dont know what I'm feeling about school. I'm really scared. I dont think I can make it. Am I good enough to survive this? Am I ready? Can I really do this?
Yes, I've been in college for five terms taking minor subjects and I think I did a great job with it. But this is so different. I am taking Interior Design and I dont know how to draw, the basic requirement to be a designer. I dont know if I am creative enough to do this either. I know I can learn if I tried hard enough but its my mind that bothers me. I am really scared to fail. Scared is still not the right word. I am mortified with the concept of failing. I am not allowed to fail. I dont want to fail. Its been months since i have my vacation. 5 months to be exact. And I have done nothing but just be home, watch, and be the laziest person
in the world. I didn't even bother to do some lessons for my future journey in school. I may not accept it but I know I AM A FAILURE.
Help me.
xoxo
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