LIFE

Year 2011 is almost ending and we'll welcome 2012 with joy in a few days but I haven't figure out yet what my life is all about and how am I goin to live it.

People will be asked about the reason why they are sad or lonely or happy or whatever and most of the time if they are not in the mood or just can't explain it, they just say "LIFE HAPPEN." In my case, I can't say that like I mean it. I just turned 18 last August and I know that life is just starting but for some people, they have experiences that I wish I got to do too. I know that nobody can read this but its just hard for me to state specifics. I dont know if I just dont really know the reason or I just dont accept it to myself. Sometimes, I just tell myself that it wont happen but I know I still keep on wishing it would, keep on hoping it will happen someday and its so frustrating and tiring and sometimes it hurts. I know God has plans for me, but my head is trying to figure out what it is and I can't help it. I cant stop it. I know I will never know what His plans are, I just have to wait and reflect and I will know that its His plan but I dont know why I dont want to take things slow, I just want things to happen and still, it doesn't.

Life is just so difficult to figure out. One's life is far from being alike with another and that how someone owns it. These things going on inside my crazy head is making my life a mess, I should learn how to control things right? I am so crazy to comfort myself after I just say all the things in my head. hahahah.

As long as I have life, I shall live.

xoxo