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Life will take you to places you want to visit, to things you want to experience and to the person who you really want to be. I'm 18 years old and I want to experience what real life is. I'm kind of not sure of what I want. Sometimes I want to be these things, the next I want to be the opposite. My mind isn't the same as others. My imagination is taking me to extreme scenarios I know in my heart won't happen to me ever. I believe in myself sometimes, that I can go far from where I am now because whether I admit it or not, I'm in a place where nothing happens. My life is boring, like boring boring. Sometimes, I wish I have a complicated life like the things I watch in the television. They have emotions in their heart and I don't. All i have felt my whole life is, i don't know. For the past 18 years, I've been an invisible person not only to everybody but to myself too. I'm in 3rd year in college and I've let life pass me by. I'm trying to pretend to be somebody else, somebody I don't know, maybe that somebody is the real me, or somebody I just wanted to be because their life has a story. But how can I know, right? Life is difficult, life is challenging. I should get a life, a real life and tell it to myself so I can be proud to be myself. I don't know if I am making sense but all I know is that I already let 18 years leave me with nothing, I have to go and get something out of my life. Everybody has a story, and I'm gonna start writing mine. PS. I just hope I'm not just writing it literally. haha

xo