2013

Hoping for a better year. 

Aiming higher. Becoming better. Transforming to a better me. 

Why?

Everything is just so wrong. Why do I get to be like this. All I wanted is to look normal or presentable but I dont think I do. Flaws, its what I am full of. And I hate it! Its just so unfair. I just wanted to cry all the time because of these flaws. I dont intend to look perfect or flawless but, why to this extreme? I feel so different and unloved by God whenever I think about this. But I still know that its just one part of my life that I question Him. I love and respect God with all my heart.

Crunch Time. And not the chocolate one

Yes, I'm talking about school. AGAIN. hahaha. When I was in basic courses, all professors warned us that in advance its really different. Its harder. You'll say goodbye to your social life(which I never had) and the word SLEEP is a thing from another planet. But luckily, SLEEP was still in my world. But now, I need to step away from being such a lazy arse(got this word from reading too much fanfics. sorry) and be a real student. I know I can finish every requirement if I just manage my time properly like what I should really do from the start. So now, its crunch time.

Sched:
Wed: Submission of Trends of Interior Design Plate "Hi Tech Chapel"
          Final Exam in Trends
Thurs: Final Exam in Ethics
            Submission of video presentation (we are cramming for this like crazy)
Fri: Final Exam in Specification writing (cover to cover to ha. let me die. NOW!)
       Interior Architecture Plate (cant write any sched for this. it will take me forever.)

See, I have busy week next week. So please help me get over with it with my head up high.
Wish me luck.

-A note: "TOO MUCH WORK, SO LITTLE TIME because you're such a lazy little girl" and yes. call youself a little girl all the time because you know you haven't mature yet.

 I know what I put here are just about anything I feel like writing. But its my blog and I love to read it in the future so that I'll be reminder that I was lazy now and if I'm lazy in the future, YOU BETTER CHANGE. PRONTO. yeah, thats just it.

PS: "-A note" will be my note to future self.

xoxo,
-A

ADVANCE

So, my advance classes already started and its terrible. The plates they are asking us to do are unbelievable. Its so hard plus I just feel lazy all the time. Here I am, typing while my plates to be done are untouched. One plate due tomorrow and I haven't started with my research. Great right? Its just so hard because I dont know if I love or even want what I am doing. But then again, if i decided to stop, I just dont know what I want to do then. I'm almost a year away from graduating from college and I still am not sure on what I want.

Sometimes, I just wanted to have another life. I dont want to die yet but I want to start all over again. I want to do things I missed when I'm growing up. Things like you thought you dont want to do but as you grow older you tell yourself that you should have when you still can.

One more week.

Yes. One more week and I'm finally over with my Interior Design Basic classes and ready to go on Advance. Woohooo. Im dont know what to feel. haha.. But, I still need to do some plates due this week. (Yes, Im not yet starting) My last year in college will be more than a year, its from june 2012 to october 2013. I know, its crazy. I cant believe Im graduating after that. What will happen to me after school? I dont know, but Im praying for a good life. :D

xo,
A